
Looking back on 1 year of improv. From shy bean to not giving a F!
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Table of contents
- The TL;DR
- How I found out about Skits ân Bits
- The move
- Starting in January for real
- The workshops
- A recommended read
- The May show
- Joining Jackal Ears
- Rocky Horror Picture Show & more!
- âI donât have creativity though?â
- Getting good: tips from a beginner to absolute beginners
- Thanking the people that made my year :3
- In conclusion
The TL;DR
Despite a really crappy 2024 in my personal life, I managed to go from being a scared, shy cat who would be scared of making mistakes during improv workshops, to a performance machine who will improv in front of any audience, comfortable with many forms of the trade like musical, longform, shortform and narrative improv, and even participating in the first Rocky Horror Picture Show performance in VRChat history - all in less than a year!
How I found out about Skits ân Bits
Back in the summer of 2023, I decided, as usual, to log into VRChat. And there I saw it: PJKT 2023 - back then, I had zero idea of what that event was, but since it was promoted pretty heavily on the VRChat menus, I decided to take a look.
It described itself as a VR meetup where communities join together in the same world and, much like a local conference, show what they are about and to network with other people.
At a certain point, I saw it: Skits ân Bits Improv. I was intrigued by it, especially considering at that point I saw a lot of Game Changer on YouTube, making me really curious about this type of performance.
âAnd now youâre telling me I can learn that? In VRChat? Iâm in!â
I thought.
I started going to a couple of classes in July, and there I was tutored (among others) by Sageidae and WalGesicht. Immediately, I understood I was in a welcoming community, as the first game we played, âMoving nameâ asked us to introduce ourselves, our pronouns, and to do a movement. All the other players will then replicate what was said and done (itâs possible to do variations!).
The point of the exercise is accepting what the other person is saying, and building on top of it.
This felt very different when I was flesh-tubing on Twitch and YouTube a year prior (both channels are now dead). Coming up with things to say, jokes, stories all by myself is not an easy task, especially if you want to write every single thing that is going to happen. Itâs a lot of pressure on myself, and I found I didnât really like that part of the process. Donât get me wrong: there is a lot of value in set-in-stone scripts, itâs just not for me. Improv showed me a different way:
Be comfortable with not having every single thing planned out, if at all - accept what you are given by your audience, and scene partners coupled with your own intelligence will lead the way. Your scene partners have your back!
The move
Shortly after, however, I had to look for an apartment and get out of the single bedroom hole I found myself living in for 3 years at that point.
So, in 2023, after three or four workshops, I had to quit for a while. Soon after, I had to take a break from VRChat altogether to focus on moving to the new apartment.
Whoever moved out of a house into a new one, you know what this means: packing everything, dealing with lots of bureaucracy, and figuring yourself out as you move into a new place - itâs stressful, especially if you are doing it all by yourself.
Even more so when your family is against it. I wonât go into too much detail, but letâs just say my family wasnât too happy about me moving to another city that is 1 hour by car from them (in all fairness, my father did help me to move my things, however unhappy he was about the whole thing). I had to do it, however, as the city I lived in at the time started getting extremely expensive (2025 update: it only got worse with time).
During December of 2023, I finished moving, and started being back to VRChat. I actually spent the New Yearâs there, and it was a really cool event with a ball dropping and localized countdowns.
Maybe 2024 wonât be so bad.
Or so I thought.
Starting in January for real
Throughout the search for the apartment and the move, I had lots of thoughts about those workshops handled by those silly goobers at SnB.
Man, I am not going there and enjoying myself. But I have to get this move all prepped up.
Accompanied by:
Man, I can see those people are still going at it. But Iâm too stressed to step in.
When I got back to VRC, and got done with catching up with all my friends there, I decided to go back to the workshops; there I met Sage again, and now a weird blue furry avatar dude called Hanns is there, showing up at every workshop.
Surely he wonât be important in the rest of this story.
The January show
Every month, SnB hosts a show. When I got there to watch, I was ecstatic at seeing all the crazy talent involved! I thought, âIt would be cool to be there and make people laugh!â
However, a thought, in the back of my mind, flashed itself to me.
You are not at that level, you stumble on stage during workshops and you expect to go on a stage with THESE people? You can dream.
At the time, I felt it was the truth. Despite that, I still decided to go to the workshops to at least try and prove myself wrong.
However, thatâs when me finally being comfortable in my apartment, after dealing with all the bureaucracy, and starting to enjoy myself in my well-deserved free time, it hit like a rock.
The job
I get called into a plenary meeting from my day job, and I receive the news: out of 15 people in the company, 5 were fired just after their welfare expired. All of this was a consequence of poor choices of clients from my managers, as well as poor handling of resources.
Of course, you can imagine the amount of stress I felt in a job that I felt was secure, with people I felt they at least acted human. No such thing, since the managers would talk back about lots of the people who were fired.
More disgustingly, they spewed awful insults to women who would quit in the past, as well as the one woman who was fired in this case, all behind their backs. Even more disgustingly, one of these managers is a woman, and was perfectly fine with it.
I decided, then, to search for another job, hoping to find something better. That sadly didnât happen; you see, in 2024 the job market requires you to have 700 years of experience, and to receive a junior-level pay at the same time.
For context, I have worked for almost 10 years at this point. For the most part, I was just ghosted by companies or received lowball offers. I still am job hunting, and personally I donât see 2025 getting any easier. But thatâs a story for another time.
The decision
You might be wondering, then, why I mentioned all of this depressing stuff about the job. This post was supposed to be about my improv journey, after all.
The reason why I did, is because the old Timber, the one who didnât enjoy herself during the move, would have stopped yet again to go and learn about improv theatre, and being involved in a community, all to maybe find a job that may be less shitty than the one she currently has.
However, something changed. I felt it was finally time for me to live.
I wonât let this stop me from enjoying myself. I did that mistake in 2023, and I have no intentions of doing that again. I will be better at improv, and maybe Iâll have to wait for 6 months or a year before I feel âreadyâ to join a show, but no matter what it takes, I will do it, and prove my anxiety wrong.
That was a complete 180 from the old me. I guess that I was just fed up with everyone and everything, and felt it was my time to move on and learn a new skill.
The workshops
So here I found myself in February enjoying myself in the weekly workshops and making new acquaintances in VR.
During this time, I kept feeling really scared of going on stage during workshops.
I donât really know why, but despite being in a welcoming environment, and being in a workshop, where you are supposed to make âmistakesâ, I felt fear in being the first to try a game, even ones I had seen beforehand.
Perhaps I feared that, exactly like in my earliest workshops, I would come up with nothing to say, only to leave with an embarrassed âIâm sorry, I⌠I canât.â
If this happens to you on stage, do not be worried, because I can assure you it happens to everyone. And when it did happen to me, your team lead is there to support you! I know this for a fact because it was the case for me.
The time I committed (one of) the biggest sin(s) in improv
âThere are no mistakes in improvâ - This is a sentence that I find really helpful in making beginners feeling comfortable in taking part in the games.
After all, you really want to encourage people to go on workshops, and you donât want them to be scared.
There are, however, sins you can commit when doing a scene:
- Not listening to/Denying your partner(s). - Itâs at best, bad for the scene because your scene partner is establishing something and you outright ignore that, making the scene confusing; at worst, itâs disrespectful to your scene partner.
- Lack of commitment. - Commitment in improv is a huge topic that is far too long to discuss in one blog post.
- Starting with a conflict. - Conflict comes up naturally in improv, but donât start with it, because the tension rises, the conflict gets resolved as soon as it gets brought up, and then the scene falls flat.
I committed sin number 2 (Lack of commitment) during a workshop, but before we delve into that tale, let me first give you some of the definitions of Commitment from my personal notes:
- Commitment is [also] about being confident in the choices that you make. Avoid âUnintentional detachmentâ at all costs, donât think in terms of âWhat if this is dumb?â, but in terms of âThis is the reality my character is in, and itâs OK, let me cook.â
- Remember: good commitment is what keeps good comedy separated from âhaha Family Guy snarky funnehâ.
With that out of the way, I remember doing two scenes in a fateful workshop night about Character Work, where Nithia09 was Team Leader of my Team.
In the first scene, I recall being a makeup artist of sorts, and Rydia was a student trying to get better at makeup to absolutely destroy her rival (fun fact: in the reality we established, clown makeup was all the rage). In the end, the scene worked, however Nithia and Rydia pointed out⌠my character wasnât that central to the story, in a two-partners scene.
This is a lack of commitment because I didnât feel confident in my character or my performance. I remember Nithia saying this to me:
âRemember that when you are on stage, the audience wants to see you.â
These words stuck to me. I felt odd, as in⌠people wanna see me?? Since when?
Itâs important to remember, that in improv, every performer is a writer, and everyone contributes with confidence and commitment.
In the second scene, playing Film Noire, I was an intern, and my scene partner (I canât remember the name of the partner, sorry!) was a detective. I canât recall every single detail about the scene; what I do remember is the fact that when the detective called my character to do something, I went in front of the stage to perform a monologue (as you are expected to do during Film Noire) and said something along the lines of âI donât want to do it because Iâm not paid enough for thisâ.
Why is this bad? I lacked commitment on my character, and especially without explaining to the audience why my character felt like that, instead of chasing a career. Itâs a âbe cynical just to be cynicalâ type of comedy. If your character doesnât care, neither will the audience.
When Nithia (rightfully!) pointed this out, at first it felt rough. Not one, but two commitment or character mistakes in one night? Itâs rough. But, after the initial âslapâ to the face, all of this gave me the push to think like this:
Itâs either I take this way more seriously or I get out.
It wasnât what Nithia said, but that self-pressure worked out eventually! Here is another piece of advice: take notes after workshops and shows.
Mamma mia, spicy IKEA meatballs
During one workshop, a crazy Swede called Blaiddan was teaching my group. He started explaining the game Film Noire, which involves the players occasionally stopping the scene and having a short monologue about the scene, in the style of a character in an old black and white thriller movie.
I had seen the game the week before during a Skits ân Bits show, so it wasnât new for me. Despite this, fear held me back from going in first.
Then Blaiddan suddenly asked:
âAlright, so thatâs the explanation for Film Noire; any volunteers?â
âDonât pick me donât pick me donât pick me donât pick meâŚâ
I kept pleading to myself.
Remember, I was still pretty shy at the time. Despite taking improv more seriously, I still had fear holding my mind as hostage.
âTimber! Why donât you go up on stage?â
âAAAAAAH OH GOD WHYâ - I screamed internally.
âSure!â - I smiled externally.
I tentatively go up on stage, as I feel everyoneâs eyes on me.
Then the unexpected happened; I played through the game smoothly, with not much stress, and I had fun with it. In later workshops, I didnât feel as scared anymore; it is important to remember, however, that stage fear will never really go away, but you can manage to live with it, or even exploit it. SwitzerLad, co-founder and team lead at Skits ân Bits, puts it this way:
âTurn your fear into excitement and you will rock on the stageâ
This advice really helped me during workshops, and later, shows.
A recommended read
âHow to be the Greatest Improviser on Earthâ by improviser Will Hines has helped me a lot to gain footing and to cement a lot of improv concepts.
The book is full of examples, games, personal stories from the author and is a really easy read. Despite the warning at the beginning that states that this is for âadvanced improvisersâ, I think that by having read that after 4 months of going to workshops regularly, I didnât have much difficulty reading through it: it doesnât dive too deep into theory, but more into âthis is my experience with this idea, and it worked or didnât work for this reasonâ.
It feels like a very personal book, and considering Will Hines has done improv for ages now, and is a teacher & performer at the Upright Citizens Brigade, I consider it a very valuable resource for improvisers!
The May show
It took me almost six months to build up the courage to participate in the Skits ân Bits that was held in May of 2024, but damn was it worth it.
I knew I was ready when I was in a workshop, where Nithia was again Team Lead. MattPro and I were in a scene together, where we were both bros on a picnic. Our characters faced a huge problem: ants were eating all of their food! And thatâs where I got an idea:
Bro, letâs just dap. The ants will die from the shockwave!
And so we did. Multiple times, with increasing energy.
Nithia was on the floor laughing the whole scene.
In that moment, I said to myself: âI am ready.â
When I got picked for the show, anxiety still went through the roof, but overall I think it went quite good. The only mistake that I made was with the Lorena scene, where I started the scene with a conflict.
I got rightfully served by her with a âyour momâ joke, ending the scene on a high note!
The highest moment of panic, however, was when we were playing the Genres game and that blue furry called Hanns, who was in the audience at the time, suggested we do âOperaâ. His reasoning?
âTimber is Italian, of course she can sing Opera!â
I⌠was a bit panicked when this was brought up, not gonna lie.
I did sing in karaoke before, but rarely in front of other people. Let alone coming up with improvised songs! Thankfully, though, in improv your partner always has your back, and Blaiddan helped immensely with his improvised song, which I followed to a T.
Surely Hanns wonât be important again in this story.
Joining Jackal Ears
Hanns did become important again in this story.
He is cracked, in a good way: he can sing, do improv, dance, and now he works at Disney World!
When I joined the Jackal Ears improv workshops, I really liked the core principle of strictly staying in a 13+ humor or language; it really forces you to think deeper about other kinds of jokes. Adult jokes are fine, but itâs really easy to come up with them.
Keeping a 13+ attitude will also make your adult humor shine through that much more.
Jackal Ears also allowed me to learn another type of improv: Musical!
I didnât consider myself a very âmusicalâ type of person, but when we started to do exercises where we have to come up with musical lyrics on the spot, I understood there was much more inside me than I thought.
We even had a musical show at the Skits ân Bits 2nd anniversary show! Something I definitely didnât even think I would do at the beginning of 2024!
Rocky Horror Picture Show & more!
After joining an improv group, and performing in a couple of shows, I thought to myself there wouldnât be a limit to what I could perform in. Iâve tasted blood and I want more I felt.
And thatâs where I had the chance to audition for Rocky Horror Picture Show - possibly one of the most iconic musicals of all time, and a staple in the LGBT community.
This was extremely fun to work on, and itâs all thanks to Ru!
At the beginning of the year, I would have never imagined to perform in a show where raunchy jokes from the audience are not only expected, but encouraged.
Later in the year, I also got into the Narrative improv course by Nithia & Rydia, which required me to hone in on my improv skills that much more.
Narrative improv is an art in and of itself, where you really need to be extremely attentive to details, and be aware of your performance partners, and at what point of the story youâre on. During the graduation show, I felt really nervous, but me and my team actually did a great job!
âI donât have creativity though?â
With all due respect, thatâs bullshit.
Everyone has creativity, you are just not asked to use it.
I could write an entire blog post just about this kind of self-doubt, but keep this in mind:
There is a very high chance that if you feel like this, you work or study in an environment where creativity, in the best case scenario, is not asked of you.
Worst case scenario, itâs frowned upon. âYou are not payed to think, you are payed to do what youâre askedâ type shit is something I faced in the past too. Just know that you are not alone in this.
Creativity is a muscle: if you donât train it, it will atrophy.
Getting good: tips from a beginner to absolute beginners
Notes, notes notes
Taking notes is one of the best things you can do.
Not just about a specific topic, but for everything going on in your life; having some time for yourself to write down and tidy up your thoughts about your day is important, especially in a world that expects us to focus on a million things at the same time.
That is the reason why I started to take notes about every single workshop I took part in since June of 2024: I take notes about the games that we do, what worked and what didnât work as well.
Itâs really helpful, especially at the beginning, to sort your thoughts and make sense of a skill that seems simple, but is actually really complex.
My recommendation is using Obsidian, and to use my markdown template for workshops, but you can use whatever works for you: Notion, .txt
files, or even a regular pen-and-paper notebook work just fine!
The important thing is you keep writing down your thoughts and what you learned.
Future you will thank you!
Singing your fear away
If you find yourself stressed out before going to a workshop or a show, a thing I recommend is singing karaoke. Soon enough, I realized that I was really scared of going on stage (yes, even on workshops), so I started going to karaoke VRChat worlds all by myself, and sing on a stage in front of an empty crowd. My personal recommendation is Karaoke in Sync.
I know what youâre thinking: âWhy the heck would I do that? I canât even sing.â
First off, 99% of people who say âI canât even singâ sing way better than they themselves realize.
Secondly, if you can go to karaoke and sing on a stage all by yourself, then you can go to a workshop and have fun playing games with other people, in a welcoming environment where youâre supposed to be a goober.
Tension gets released and you will feel more relaxed afterwards.
Over time, doing this before workshops helped me with getting comfortable on going on a stage, and nowadays I donât even do it that much. Maybe sometimes before big shows, were I feel the stakes are higher.
Read improv books
The aforementioned âHow to be the Greatest Improviser on Earthâ definitely helped me grounding my knowledge in improv, but itâs by far not the only improv book out there.
âThe Upright Citizens Brigade: Comedy Improv Manualâ by the Upright Citizens Brigade is considered, for instance, the Bible of improv as it contains lots of important improv theoretical concepts, such as âThe Game of the Sceneâ, as well as practical examples. âOne day Iâll read thatâ, ya girl always says. I really need to get my hands on it, and my pinky promise for 2025 is to read all of that!
Remember that theory alone wonât make you an excellent improviser, but it does help you find your footing, and understand the mechanics of this crazy kind of art.
Music helps you relax
Before a show, I almost always put my phone on Do Not Disturb mode, wear comfortable headphones, and play music to help myself focus and relax. Tracks that I personally recommend before a show are in this YouTube playlist!
Thanking the people that made my year :3
There is no achievement that one can obtain only by themselves; so I am going to try and list everyone who helped me in this journey.
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WalGesicht & SwitzerLad for founding and managing Skits ân Bits;
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Sage for being my first improv teacher, and for being an understanding & caring one at that!
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Hanns for involving me in Jackal Ears, and inspiring me to do better;
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Blaiddan for pushing me to the limit in my skills since day one;
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Ru for being an absolute Queen and not only directed the first Rocky Horror Picture Show performance, but also for believing in me in that big endeavour;
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Nithia09 for pushing me to the limit with their narrative improv workshop, and for presenting valid, actionable criticism when I needed it most - and of course, for the Narrative improv course!
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MattPro - Cat gang đđđť
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Citrine for checking in during our graduation show for Narrative improv, and their words of encouragement they had for us;
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Rydia for believing in the power of my voice, and for being a great Narrative improv teacher alongside Nithia!
And many, many more people. Too many to count!
Even if I forgot to mention you, I want you to know you are fantastic, and have been extremely helpful and kind to me :3
In conclusion
Itâs been an interesting year, where I started as an extremely shy and insecure bean, to finish it off not giving a single flying fuck on stage.
And itâs all thanks to YOU!
For 2025, I am looking forward to learning more about role playing, and to actually learning how to dance! I just got started, and I canât wait to see what the future holds!
~ Timber the Cat â¤ď¸